Our daughter is back in school during the day now and pursuing studio arts. As someone who loves art and our daughter I have to say I am pleased with how things are going. She was very excited about how things suddenly clicked when her art teacher was talking about the weight of a picture while they were looking at a slide of a Mondrian. Mondrian is not an easy painter to approach – he is one of those painters about whom so many people would say “I could do that” but then never pick up a brush to prove they could handle oil paint in such a perfect fashion. The biggest thing is that our schedule is moving forward. We are on track for April. Woohoo. Moving in the right direction.
I’ve been on track with my resolutions for the year too. I am being more frugal, I am exercising more while the weight is being stubborn but I am eating well. Naturally I continue to make more art – here are the most recent efforts. Also coming soon: a new short story. Today was the release date for The Ultimate Great Basin Relay on iTunes and that went without a hitch so it’s time to get the next one up and ready to go.
An experiment with watercolour crayons, heat and water.
Albert farm – just west of Lac La Biche
I thought they were cute
Black eyed suzies – first painting wet on wet
Trying to paint sky – wet on wet
Today was day 90. We have a timeline though, an exit strategy, a way through the woods that should see our daughter home the first week of April.
Life is never dull, but it is glacial. I do what I can to move things forward, Donna’s been trying to help me forward, but things never quite seem to move. It seems sometimes the worlds glaciers are receding faster than I am moving forward. Ah well, at least I am making art.
I’m quite gregarious for the first time and perhaps the second time I meet someone, after that I lose interest. I’m certain that others lose interest in me as fast as I do in them so it doesn’t strike me as an egregious social transgression but it does sometimes pose problems.
When Lynn was alive none of this happened because Lynn, while not being as “hail fellow and well met” as I am on first meeting, was much better at keeping contact with people. She found people interesting and liked talking and socializing. These are things which I avoid like the plague. I can barely tolerate my own company let alone anyone else’s. Back to the point though. In our current situation her knack for keeping touch with people and having so many friends would come in handy. Our daughter is taking guitar as part of her CEGEP course load starting on the 20th. Earlier this year I sold Lynn’s old guitar on the relatively certain knowledge that no one in the family played guitar……ya, that happened. Won’t do any good for me to swear at this point. Still Lynn would have known half a dozen people from whom we could borrow a guitar – I don’t even know half a dozen people.
I’m still in touch with the woman who bought Lynn’s old guitar so I am first going to see if we can arrange a six month rental (she has a collection of guitars so I hope it is possible). The reality is that our daughter will not learn guitar, she will do what is needed to pass the course and then abandon the instrument so owning one is pointless. Fingers crossed.
I did a couple of sketches today along with these two paintings. I’m getting more and more comfortable with making mistakes and just moving past them or starting over. Making more because I worry less about making it perfect which doesn’t mean I don’t try my best but it does mean that I try which is more than I can say for my people skills.
The compulsory sunset attempt
Another one stuck in my head trying to get out.
Sing to silence
exist in notes
to ephemeral breath.
Our daughter just rolled her 78th day in hospital which is far more than either of us ever anticipated. A smidge over 11 weeks with more to come. Things are much improved and we have hopes that the improvements are not ephemeral. There’s not much else to do but move forward. That pretty much sums up life its ownself.
Yesterday was a failure on the art front, other than the poem that is. Failure is important. With each failure I learn something new and it is important to learn by doing when you are making art. So here they are my most recent efforts which I keep as reminders that not everything goes as planned.
Orange Julep – This whole thing went pear shaped as soon as I finished the restaurant.
Five Roses Flour sign
bad teeth on 1″ strip
coloured grass on 1″ strip
Spaceman on 1″ strip
I should find a gallery plugin that I like for WordPress to do this but all the gallery plugins I’ve seen so far are dogs that don’t hunt. So here we are with three more pieces of watercolour – one is very small.
Rockies scene from picture found on Internet (given away)
1″ x 6″ landscape
The trouble with weight loss is the little bounces. Weight doesn’t move only in a downward motion when you are dieting, it kind of bounces. I’m at 229.2 this morning versus 228.4 two days ago but I know I have not been eating poorly. Nothing to be done but stay the course as there are a lot of days left to lose the 60 lbs I want to drop. At least it didn’t bounce back up to 230.
In the meantime here are numbers 11 and 12 on my make more art campaign. I’ve done drawings in ink before but never something as complicated as the truck (complicated for me that is) and the bubbles are something of an exercise to see if I could do it without resorting to alcohol drops or colour lifting.
Trying to paint bubbles.
Black and grey markers
Just a few more watercolours (number 7, 8 and 9 since I decided to try this) – keeping up with the resolutions. Made more art, lost 1.2 lbs so far and working hard on the frugal thing but having a teenage daughter doesn’t really help in that department.
Never put on black first.
Not quite what I had hoped for but a learning experience
I was obsessed by this idea so I did it to get it out of my head.
I’m visiting our daughter at the hospital tonight. Visiting can be weird. Often she is doing a craft or talking with friends on the ward and it feels to me like she would rather not have me there than to have me there. It is a good thing that visits are restricted to parents only or there might be more than one second wheel on the unicycle.
The flip side of that is if I didn’t go it would be as if she were being abandoned even though we are now on a 3/4 day split between hospital and home. Visiting hours are always a hassle regardless of when they occur. Work to home, walk the dog, scarf down some food then back out the door to the hospital. I’ve said it before and I will say it again: I would like life to be far less interesting than it is.
It’s that time of year again. Resolution time. I’ve never been one for making resolutions but I am going to give it a go this year. Here they are in no particular order.
Spend more time making art. Whether writing stories or drawing or painting I would like to spend more time creating.
I am the same 230 lbs now as I was this time last year and I hate it. It is physically uncomfortable. I would like to drop 60 lbs this year. That’s 5 lbs a month or 1.2 lbs a week. I see no M&Ms in my future.
Be more frugal – that could work in nicely with the others. If you’re making art you aren’t going out and spending money. If you are eating less you aren’t going out and spending money.
That’s it. Three simple resolutions and only time will tell how well I keep them.
In the meantime here are three paintings I did over the last little while.
Banana on kitchen counter
Yellow flower trying to hide